Tuesday, September 20, 2011

life.

'life happens when you busy making plans'

this is FALSE.

life happens when you let go, and go with the flow. 

i've been on vacation for almost two months, and i've had the time of my life. this experience has been one that i will never forget. 
i drove cross country with my best friend, to her new house in Missouri, spent a few weeks there, went to Saint Louis, went in the arch, had a delicious milkshake, met some hot elders, made my way through a forest, tried to save feral kittens, got scared of an animal rubbing against the house, laughed, cried, went to church and learned that all boys in Missouri are hot.


then i went to Navoo

Navoo was great, i meet up with my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew and said goodbye to my best friend. we visited most of the old buildings and i learned a lot.

but then i went to Carthage.

it changed my life. 
standing in the place where great men gave their lives for the Gospel is something i cannot describe in words. seeing the bullet holes in the door, feeling the empty space in the wood, has changed my life. i know with out a shadow of a doubt that what happened in that room was real and the Prophet Joseph  was just that, a Prophet of God, sent to this earth to bring back the fullness of the Gospel. I know with every fiber of my being that this is the true Gospel of Christ. i hope that if the time comes, i will make the same brave choices that those incredible men made. but i hope i'll never have to.

Chicago

Chicago was amazing, i didn't do much, but i didn't want to. i didn't go there to see sights and soak up the city, i went to spend time with my family. and i did, and it was great. we played games and watched shows and movies and laughed and bonded. i love my family, and i am so blessed to be able to spend time with them. But i did do some cool stuff, we went to a museum and and aquarium and an orchard. but mostly we spent time together, and that's what i wanted.

Monday, September 5, 2011

simple

i wish life was simple

i wish growing up just meant all the fun stuff
driving
having money
doing fun stuff

with out all the drama
a job 
responsibility 
problems

why can't growing up be fun.
why does it have to be work?

why choose the right?

when i was doing 'bad things' i was content happy.

i had a lot of friends
i did what i wanted when i wanted
i laughed all the time
i was healthy
i was social
i was confident.

now i'm choosing the right 

i have few friends
i delay gratification
i laugh a lot less
i'm unhealthy
i'm a hermit
i'm insecure 

choosing the right isn't easy. it isn't always fun. and sometimes i question why. why am i doing all these 'good' things. when i was doing what ever i wanted i was happier. i look back and think man i wish i was still that person. but choosing the right has blessed me more in the past two year than i could have ever imagined. 

choosing the right 

let me to having a real relationship with my Heavenly Father & Jesus
lets joy into my life
helps me gain prospective
helps me lead a life of everlasting peace
blesses me with friends who respect me and my beliefs


choosing the right is worth it. always.